It happens to each and every parent.
It’s a fair trade, though . . . your brain cells in return for these amazing little people.
Inevitably though, there is that moment when you realize they have sucked all the sanity right out of your brain.
My first moment of awareness (and I have had many more since!) came when I sent my kindergartner to school in an adorable penguin nightgown . . . for Pajama Day at school. I had a baby at home who wasn’t sleeping, I wasn’t sleeping. We had just moved from another state, and I was struggling to figure out everything going on at our new elementary school. I was trying very hard to fit in and meet new families and do everything “right.”
So when I got a note from my daughter’s kindergarten teacher saying Thursday, March 3 would be “Pajama Day” at school, I thought, “How fun!”
On Wednesday evening, my daughter and I picked out her favorite pajamas (the penguin nightgown was her choice). I took photos as she got on the bus, in her penguin nightgown and matching slippers!
She looked so cute.
Fast-forward to the end of the school day. My daughter got off the bus and said (no, she yelled), “Mommy, guess what? TOMORROW is pajama day. Not today!” Yep, I sent her to school in her nightgown. The poor kid walked around all day . . . class, recess, lunch . . . in her nightgown! NO! She must be wrong, I thought. I ran inside the house and found the letter and sure enough, it said, FRIDAY, March 3rd! F*&K! (I actually yelled, “FUDGE!”).
That was the first moment I realized I had officially lost my mind.
My kids had stolen every single brain cell left in my head. I knew WHY it happened . . .there was way too much swirling around inside my brain, and too little sleep, to actually remember it all.
I apologized to my daughter and together we picked out another pajama outfit for the next day. I was relieved she was just five years old, and not any older because she was pretty unfazed. I am sure a 4th grader would’ve been completely traumatized by it. But thankfully my kindergartner said sweetly, “it’s okay Mommy, I was actually really comfy in my nightgown all day.”
And that was the moment I decided to embrace the insanity of motherhood. Why? Because I knew it would happen again. My brain cells would keep disappearing into those vast depths of parenthood.
But then, I had a revelation . . . My little sanity-suckers may have caused many of my brain cells to disappear, but they have also made my HEART grow 10 times in size.
And you know what? I consider that to be a very fair trade. ♥
I’m a former television producer turned full-time mom / animal rescue advocate / freelance writer. My blog Moments Big and Small celebrates life’s moments . . . big and small ones and all the others in-between. Wine is included. Celebrate with me at www.momentsbigandsmall.com. Find me on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram.
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